The past few years have been a journey of change, massive freaking change. it has been ROUGH! I knew when I decided to start weight lifting. I wanted to take my weight gain more seriously. Mind you, I was like 88-95 pounds at the age of 23. I went through a bout of ED as a teenager, but was maintaining a healthy relationship with food nonetheless. I do have a super high metabolism, and because I was born premature, I am on the smaller size overall. Weight gain and training have been hard to navigate. At 29, I find myself healthy and muscular, to be honest with you. I am so grateful to my boyfriend for his help and support.
On this little escapade, I’ve learned so much about myself. I’m no longer the same person I was when I first started modeling. I was 14 years old. This new version of me is ready to step back into the industry with more confidence. I have strength. I’ve realized that my weight gain isn’t something to hide. It’s part of my story. It shows my growth and my journey back to modeling. And now, I’m ready to get signed again, I feel stronger than ever.
Nail-biting has been one of my long-time struggles, especially when stress and anxiety hit. It was my way of dealing with overwhelming emotions, something to focus on when I felt out of control. But as I started diving deeper into fitness, I noticed a shift in my anxiety response. Workouts helped release tension and calm my mind. Yoga and weight lifting are especially beneficial. Now, I focus on the endorphins from exercise rather than the anxiety that triggered my old habit. It’s been a game-changer for my mental health and my confidence. I am not were I want to be 100000%, but progress is progress!
Fitness has done more for me than just help me get physically fit. It’s given me the confidence I need to step back into the modeling world. I’ve stopped focusing on trying to fit into a specific mold and instead focused on feeling strong. I’ve learned that being in shape is about more than appearance. It’s about how I carry myself. It’s about how I show up for myself. It’s about how I feel in front of the camera. This shift has prepared me for modeling not just physically, but mentally. Confidence comes from within, and fitness has been the key to unlocking that power.
Now that I’m in the fitness game, I’m not just preparing for photoshoots. I’m preparing to embrace myself in front of the camera with full confidence. Fitness has made me realize that self-worth isn’t defined by a size or a number on the scale. It’s about being confident in who you are and what you bring to the table. I’m ready to get signed again. This time, it’s not about fitting someone else’s idea of beauty. It’s about celebrating who I am, exactly as I am.
You are getting back into fitness. You’re dealing with anxiety or stepping back into something you love. Know that you are not alone in the journey. Fitness isn’t just about physical transformation, it’s more about mental clarity, building confidence, and becoming the best version of yourself.
I’m so excited for what’s next in my modeling career, and I’d love for you to follow along with me.
Let’s embrace our journeys together! Drop a comment below. Let me know where you are in your own fitness or modeling journey. I can’t wait to hear your stories.
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xoxo
– Ale
